Misled signals.

Fuck fuck fuck.

I'm so screwed.

I really hope 2010 would be a fucking good year.

:(

I can't bring myself to hurt him.

Shitshitshit.

Being put in a spot is not a good feeling.

What the fuck.

How the fuck.

Amy is the major fucker.

P/S: I'll be away for awhile. Busy with work, New Year's Eve, thinking of ways to kill myself.

*I won't be so stupid to kill myself.. please, I've got a lot to achieve in life.

Some things are going my way, some aren't.

I'll be back when New Year's here.

(Long gone, but not gone forever)

AMY, WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING.

I really don't fucking know what I should do.

I'm fucking lost and confused.

He's giving, but he's not receiving.

Dammit, it's my fucking fault.

Amy you fucked up bitch, I seriously hope you die.

I guess I have to start learning to appreciate the people I have now. Someone finally knocked some sense into me. I shouldn't just let things go so easily like how I let 'B' go. Again, my irrational decision and self-centered attitude has led things to go otherwise.

I really apologize for having some fucked up attitude.

Because, I really don't want to lose anyone else.

I almost lost someone who's seemed close to me.

He was there when I needed someone, but where was I?

Nowhere.

I'm sorry.

I don't wanna go anywhere.

I just feel like staying at home.

:( I feel so fucking hopeless and useless.

Fuck you Amy.

What the fuck?

Mommy bought me Bobby Brown's foundation for X'mas.

And Daddy bought me some hair wax which cost about $30?
HOLY SHIT, LOVE YOU MOMMY AND DADDY MANYMANY.

Tomorrow there's gonna be chaos in my house.

Because they are coming over to ...

have mass-orgy.

HAHAHA, NOT.

Bye

This boy would make a good substitute for the cake!

Hehehehehe.

Get you tickets from me or any of Lyssa's Requiem members.

Other good bands are performing tomorrow as well.

And it's only for 6 fucking bucks if you buy from us.

Buy at the door, your loss, $10.

For those who have no sense of direction.

Meet at Farrer Park at 3pm, don't be late or I'll grab your nuts.

If not, I'll kick you in the groin.

Scary right? So be punctual if not we leave you alone.

LOLOL, k bye and have a fucking good x'mas.

Happy (fucking) birthday Aliah.

And finally, your long awaited 18th birthday.

Which means, you are legal and..

you can't go clubbing with me anymore :( !

Anyway, thanks for being my best girlfriend for like 4 years+ ?

I think without you, my life would never be what it is.

And, I love how we can laugh/talk about anything.

And continue to dream (like what we talked at MacD hahahha).

Ok, I hope you have a blast on your birthday.

See first whether I wanna go clubbing with you later or not hehe.

And and and, get your hot boyfriend soon k hahah.

I love you! <3<3<3

Babble Babble Bitch Bitch

Rebel Rebel Party Party

Sex Sex Sex, and don't forget the violence

Blah Blah Blah got your lovey-dovey sad-and-lonely

Stick your stupid Slogan in:

Everybody sing along!

you've got me.

_|_

I don't want to spend them alone.
Memories of Christmas time with you.

will just kill me if I'm on my own."

I beg to differ this whole verse from A Lonely September by Plain White T's.

Because I have my family and friends to spend my Christmas with.

I've got 400+ photos to upload.

But it's okay because I enjoyed myself.

I'm having a terrible headache and major bodyaches after today's gig. There can never be a day whereby I step out of the gig-place being all clean, non-sweaty and without getting hurt. But despite all the post-gig effects, had a lot of fun during Beyond Suicidal and Arsonist Treason's set. They're fucking awesome to the max because we can chant the songs together, headbang like you've been possessed (Darrell and Enaa are fucking scary headbang-ers, fucking hell scary) and 2-step! And I think Orange shisha is fucking sweet, makes my breath all orange mint-like.

And it's 1 more day to fuck-day, I've only got 3 wishes on my birthday. Not asking for a lot this time round because I'm very much contented with what I have now. I'll probably blog after my birthday or when I've got anything else interesting to blog about because I'm fucking lazy to blog. Louis is always the one that keeps pestering me to blog on a regular basis. Oh and, I'm gonna start linking people on my blog, so please feel free to drop your links in the comment box at any post or just send them directly to my e-mail/msn.

Oyasuminasai!

(And I do not depend my survival on just anybody except my family, friends, food,water, oxygen. I stand against my own grounds because I've got nothing else to lose. And that's why I am here!)

I'm in school with Juliani Mummy and Nickki darling now. I woke up late today, and I thought I was the one who was gonna be late. Suprisingly, Juliani Mummy came an hour later and I had my Tom Yum Ban Mian. Heavy breakfast accompanied by White Chip cookies from Subway. We're now doing the marketing segmentation shit and we're done for the day.

Gonna meet Andy, Thomas, Darrell for Shisha before heading for Thursday Nights' Jam at about 5pm. I know I'm gonna enjoy because there's Beyond Suicidal and Arsonist Treason and it has been almost a week since I went for a gig. And now that I've fully recovered all the more I should scream my hearts out and enjoy like there's no tomorrow.

Sometimes, I wish I was more intelligent to know and comprehend what the fuck is going on. But then again, I don't give a fuck about everything/anything. Because, I've already done my part, what about you? Or am I just stupid to believe something that's might not likely be true?

I'm back for a proper update since I'm all healthy now. To summarize what I've been doing for the past few days, I'll just list the 10 most significant things that happened to me.

1. Dyed my hair the wrong color (it's all brown now, boring)

2. Been meeting part of the people almost everyday

3. Oh yea, I'm having holidays now

4. My birthday is this Sat and ..

5. I know Qam's gonna bake me brownies/tiramisu cake hehe

6. Louis have been coming my place often because we're lazy fuckers

7. And he's right here beside me smiling at himself (retard fuck)

8. Jude's comeback

9. Since it's the holidays, gonna resume gaming

10. I'm turning into a lazy fucker, I'm heading outside tonight (again)

And Thursday and Friday am gonna attend two gigs, which I hope I will survive and don't die because Saturday we're gonna go Sentosa and in the evening Wavehouseeeee~ !! And I'm gonna bring my DSLR and NDSi out today, hehehe. I fucking excited for no reason, and it's raining now. Louis is a selfish fucker btw, he just snatched the blanket from me. FYL Louis.

Gonna be away from this space for awhile.

I'm gonna have the time of my life.

Thank you for my advanced X'mas/B'day gift Azza! ^^

And thank you to Louis for everything.

I'm gonna have my labret pierced later.

Hehehehehe, bye.

"A kiss is a lovely trick, designed by nature, to stop words when speech becomes superfluous."

YOU TOLD ME YOU CARED!

But I don't care about you.

You are a slut-butt.

So shut the fuck up!

Keep your mouth shut.

That shows how much I was genuinely happy.

4 entries were posted after the 11th day.

2 entries were posted before it, but was nothing related to 'it'.

:) And did I mention?

Louis is fucking awesome, I love you <3

It sucks to be sick.

I want to recover because a lot things are waiting for me.

And I'm gonna go kick some ass this smashing holiday!

I'll be back when I'm alive.

I feel that my life has changed a lot when I first joined Lyssa's Requiem. I was in a state of hesitation when Joe invited me to join the band as a bassist because I had experience with playing the guitar. Truthfully, I was not confident of my own abilities, and I was afraid of losing out because the rest of the members were much more experienced than me. But it was because of the four of them who have motivated me to practice and that they have successfully convinced me to be part of them. Lyssa's Requiem was the first band that I have joined, and I have learnt so much within the span of about 8 months. We've progressed so much from the beginning and it's the faith we have in each and every of the member that holds us together and stronger. And I've learnt part of the meaning of Music. Lyssa's Requiem went through a lot of hardships especially when everyone suffered a financial crisis, controversies of our songs and a serious case of back-stab. But I guess, without these hardships, we wouldn't be what we are today. And really without Lyssa's Requiem, I wouldn't be what I am right now. Thank you so much Lyssa's Requiem. We as a band, will strive together to achieve more. Even if it takes forever, we still are making at least a little progress as compared to last time. And the fact that this is just the beginning stage of the development of Lyssa's Requiem. We, as a band will work together and achieve our own goals. Thank you once again.

And I'm down with fever, sore throat and backaches, and it's gonna be a stay home Monday for me. I wanna go school tomorrow because I miss my classmates (and since it's gonna be the last week of school). Hopefully the pictures would be uploaded by today and I'll laugh at how hilarious it may be!

Had a lot of fun with Lyssa's Requiem people yesterday. I had like 400+ pictures to edit and resize and upload but it was good because we are very awesome people hehehehe. And I'm having sore throat now, probably partly due to the screaming here and there and talking on the phone in the early morning just now. It's okay it's alright because today's gonna be our last gig, can't wait to see the babies later. GOODBYE AND, I SAY LYSSA YOU SAY REQUIEM, BITCH!

I love Louis and Jave a whole lot because they are one of the few who never fail to annoy and make me a happy girl! Louis, you are the sex and will always be the sex because Jave is your sexy partner in crime. Thank you for the gigantic lollipop you both, bearhugs many many! Will meet you both tomorrow and we shall kick some ass!

And I met Royston Pablo Gonzales bff and watched 2012. Was not as shit-in-the-pants material as I thought. I laughed throughout the movie and had asscramps, not a comfortable feeling yo. I expected all the people to die when they opened the vault in the end. Too bad, it didn't happen. A very typical happily-ever-after ending. But it's okay, we're gonna catch Case 39 next week and we'll shit in our pants. We had dinner and Starbucks hehehehe.

I have to thank Nickki because she passed me her virus and now I'm having sore throat and flu. Please recover asap because I wanna have a blast on Sunday's gig and not make much mistakes as compared to yesterday. And my Saturday is gonna be a fucking good day because I'm gonna meet Louis and Jave in the morning for breakfast and do some asskicking, and then have jamming with darling LR babies. And then we're gonna rot-core in town tmrz.

I think I need to rest because my head's in a mess.

(woah fuck it rhymes, dj amy in the house yo!)

Had a fucking blast at BlackHole yesterday night, and I'm fucking tired and shagged. I'm at home typing away, and actually by right I should be in school. I woke up at 11 fucking am, and I have yet to shower because my body aches everywhere! But, I'm heading to school later to meet my classmates, can't stand staying at home the whole day. Will update more if I'm not lazy tonight.

I can't believe it, I am actually gonna participate in a marketing project with another 5 students from my class. Goodbye holidays, hello hardcore working period. And if our group wins, we'll get to go for an internship with the company. Fucking sexcited, but the workload is just too much! We have to submit the project investigations. Good fucking luck to us! And tonight's gonna be a fucking good night because, we're gonna scream our lungs out at BlackHole! And and Shayne is still attractive. Sexy boy!

Let's make December 2009 a fucking month to remember.

And I have a fucking huge crush on ..

Shayne Oron!!

Not only he is amazingly adorable, he has this ability to have his voice stuck in my head. You should check him out on YouTube because his originals have sentimental meaning in them and he gave me the inspiration to come up with a new original. His vocal range, keyboard skills and his smile is perfuckingfect! And I'll be fucking back with a completed version of "I'll never forget you!" and probably a cover done by my class later.

Byebyebye!

You no longer become a part of me because,

you are already apart from me.

Thank you for those who have been through with me all this while, and I've finally managed to stand with two feet on my grounds. I won't stop fighting for what I feel is right. And now, it's time for me to move on because you've just become part of my memory.

We're gonna have 2 more upcomming shows, and after which Lyssa's Requiem would be inactive until Mark (our drummer) completes his 3 month NS service. We'll wait for you because without you, our band would mean nothing since we've gone through thick and thin together.

Hope to see you guys there! Pre-sale tickets are available, please contact me or any of LR's members if you want any. We'll scream 'You fucking burn in hell!' together.