Saturday, February 13, 2010 @ 1:00 AM
A (proper) update!
It has been 43 days since the start of 2010. When it was on the 43rd day of 2009, I was feeling remorseful about my O' Level results. I make high expectations which is both good and bad. Good in a way I work harder to strive what I want, bad in a way that if I fail, I'll suffer great disappointment. And that was what happened to me.
43 days since the start of something new, I've learn a lot of things. Firstly, I've learnt that friendship and family owns everything else (besides money). It's something that you can't buy even if you have money. And this year when I've made a couple of new friends, I've learnt to accept their flaws. In the past, I was someone who dislike almost everyone and anyone, even myself. How long can you remain angry over someone you're upset with? The fights that occur within my circle of friends made me realize that friendship is something intangible. People fight, because they care. It's a more aggressive way of expressing care, but still.. (you get my drift).
43 days, I've seen people turning into pretentious people. Pretentious in a way that just the sight of them would be able to piss the fuck out of me. I've met distinctively 3 people who are able to piss the fuck out of me when I see them. Human beings pretend being someone they're not because they want to be better than themselves. But pretending too much, is just.. annoying. Especially being stuck around them for a period of time, I swear to the invisible man above, you just feel like killing them if you can.
43 days, I've learnt to be more confident with myself. I've occasionally have low self-esteem issues and I'd get all paranoid and shit like that. But right now, I'm really happy with what I am. You should so something to yourself, rather than complaining about something that you don't like about you. I did something to myself, have you? I would be lying to say I don't give a fuck about anything/everything people say about me. I take in the good as compliment, I take the bad as constructive critisms. You can't get everyone to like you.
I think these 43 days have been good so far despite everything that may not seem ideal to some. I guess I'll learn to understand myself better in the future.
:)