This is not a fairytale, face reality.

Wednesday, March 31, 2010 @ 12:34 AM

nope nope nope

My Tuesday was awesome as usual!

I met boncetboy at 12pm. He was late for 3 hours, but it's okay I don't blame him because he has been working for more than 12 hours. I gave him a wake up call at 10am, only to know that he slept back because he did not reply my text at 11am. I entertained myself by watching some random videos on Youtube and then finally the boy called me.

B: Eh Amy sorry eh!
Me: Ni confirm baru wake up.

B: Tak, I never sleep.

Me: You can lie to everyone else but not me.

Hehehehe, he trying to be cute ah. But fail, because I know how he sounds like when he just wake up! :x So we went to Cantonement cos he wanna settle his stuffs and then we watched a movie at Vivo (When in Rome)! We fail cos we kept eating the popcorn and it was already finished when the movie was barely halfway through. I think it's a funny movie and rather entertaining haha, kept laughing like fuck and disturbing Boncetboy! Oh and he very sweet, he lent me his long-sleeved checkered shirt because I was cold! And poor boy had to brave through the cold. (act strong only, hahahaha)

And then he sent me off to meet my friends, and because of that he was late for work! :( I'm sorry k, next time we meet I'll bake muffins to make it up to you! I got lost finding them because I wasn't really familiar with Bishan still. So I had to ask for directions (I'm more independent than Andy please) to the coffeeshop they're at. Met them, and shared our daily dose of nonsense as usual and 2 egg pratas + Honey Red Tea for dinner. Went home about 11.30pm and I'm now at home. It's 12.45am and even though i met the boy 1 hour ago, I miss him already! :(

Anyway, tomorrow's gonna be a good day because the usuals are gonna chillout at Bugis (I think) and then Thursday I'm gonna meet Ally girlfriend and Don. I've yet to see you both in ages! Hope to see you guys soon!

Anddddddddddd, Boncet if you're reading this, take care of Brownies k. Be a good daddy! :P

Monday, March 29, 2010 @ 4:35 PM

rain rain go away

It's raining and I'm home alone. :(

And I'm listening to Owl City which makes me feel all funny. I just wish the boy is here right now. Anyway, my weekend was alright I guess. My Saturday was well-spent with LR, ME and the usuals. I'll upload the pictures once I'm done with the editing and resizing. There's like 220 pictures to upload, so I'm gonna take my own sweet time. My Sunday was awesome because I got to spend the day with the boy and Nini and i-know-who.

And today... I think I'm gonna smoke my day away since no one's at home. I shall do something productive since it's a good time to come up with a new original. Mm, till then! Have a great day ahead.

Friday, March 26, 2010 @ 12:17 AM

hard to breathe

I've spent my whole life questioning.

Sometimes what is placed in front of us,

I find it hard to believe.

It can crush us so hard,

that it becomes difficult to breathe.

Give it some time, is just not enough.

I've gotta dig deeper than that.

To find comfort, we sit and pretend.

That we're content.

But I feel we've covered up our rage

that keeps us driven,

SEARCHING FOR SOMETHING MORE.

Hard To Breathe - Verse

Thursday, March 25, 2010 @ 12:23 AM

the xx

5am in the morning with my favourite boy.

Hello sunshine, today is a very wonderful day.

In the morning I called my friends saying that I can't join them because my ez-link card died on me and my parents were not home. If my parents were at home during the time I woke up(2.30pm), I'd probably be happily outside playing Guitar Hero at Darrell's place. And then, I didn't expect them to come all the way down to Serangoon just because I was broke. Like wtf, I've really awesome friends, it's something that not everyone would be willing do. So, a big thank you to Enaa, Darrell, Andy, Intan, Aixz, Areep, Afiq, Sharul. One day, I'll treat you all bubble tea, how's that? :P And my fingers are aching now because I've been playing the guitar with them for like the whole day. Oh oh, and then there was a cockroach that was stuck in between my fretboard and my strings, hahahaha. Epic shit pls, I was so disgusted yet laughing like a fucker.

Yay, tomorrow I'mma head down to Aixz's place to session with "ME" and working out on the 2nd original. I'm very excited because I've already heard it and it's really nice hehehe. "Bear that in mind, bear that in mind." I pray to the "invisble man" above that I'll be able to wake up at 12pm and not 2.30pm again. I think there's no use in spam calling me, because I hafta' admit, when it comes to sleeping, I think I'm a professional. Hahaha.

To the boy,

Whatever happens, I'll be there for you. Remember what we talked about yesterday? We'll go through thick and thin together, and this is only the starting of our "journey". And we're left with 49 more days. Can't wait to see you soon.

I miss you!

Okay, I've already cleaned up my room and I'm listening to Doubt by Delphic. My favourite song for the day. I'm fucking tired from running around with them. Hahaha, only me and them know what we've been doing under the void deck! XD Goodnight.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010 @ 5:45 AM

appreciative

It's because of you that made me appreciate what I have right now. It's because of you that I'm trying to change for the better. And it's because of you that I have faith in. Time will tell in the future if things were really meant to be or not. I had a great time talking to you at ungodly hours (yes, we met at 3am in the morning), just the two of us. At this time, I'm sure nothing is confirmed/finalised, but for sure, I'm positive about this. I hope to see you soon, Farhan.

I think I've thought things through enough already. All I need right now are my close friends, my family and someone.

To my closefriends,

Thank you for being through thick and thin with me. Even though I may be an asshole at times but it's just for the fun of it. I like to see everyone happy, because it makes me happy. I'm sure we'll have many more memories to share together in the coming future. Even though I might have someone in my life right now (though it's not really confirmed), I'll assure you I'll prioritize my time for you guys over him. Bros/Sis over Dicks/Pussies remember? :P I love you people.

To my family,

Thank you for tolerating my nonsense for the whole 17 years of my life. I know I've been a fucked up daughter but sometimes I think I need a break also. I tend to keep things to myself because you are not understanding enough. Either I'll get nagged or reprimanded at if I tell you my problems, but I know, it's because you both care for me that's why. I'll try my best to be a filial daughter and "pay back" for what you've given me. I love you Mom&Dad.

I just feel so happy, and appreciated. And a really big thank you to Farhan. And p/s: I still remember your birthday okay, hahahaha. "20th July" is close to "10th June" k. Hahahaha. Now, I can sleep in peace. It feels so good to be happy (not that I've not been happy this past few weeks, but the feeling of happy is just indescribable). I'm a happy motherfucker.

I think I'm gonna stop blogging for now because seems like all my entries are all nonsensical and doesn't really reflect on my lifestyle. But what the fuck, it's still my blog =P Hehehehe. Okokok, goodnight babies.

Monday, March 22, 2010 @ 3:39 PM

meowmeow

I just remembered, I was soundly asleep and my mom was nagging at me at about 7am, mentioning how messy my room was and how I was a lazy fucker. Hahaha! I was too tired to defend myself, and I continued to sleep.

So, with that I should do justice in this house by cleaning my room when I get home. I'm currently at Woodlands waiting for the boy and drinking honey red tea + green apple jelly. I'm blogging using my phone because I'm bored hahaha!

Ok, I should walk around the MRT station now. Bye!

yupppppp :D:D

I basically spent the whole day at home doing nothing. Except of course having lunch with my relatives then I was locked up at home all alone. I watched 10 episodes of Family Guy, and kept going in and out of my room to get some snacks from the kitchen cos I was hungry, went to the living room to watch TV, and now I'm waiting for my American Pie to load finish then I can watch in peace without the buffering shit. And now, I've got nothing to do..

It's Monday already and I'm gonna meet the boy in the afternoon and then meet the usuals at night. So meanwhile, I think I'm gonna go watch TV outside and talk to myself.

Goooodnight :D!

Sunday, March 21, 2010 @ 4:29 PM

It's a stay home Sunday for me today.

Yesterday Eargasm was good, really enjoyed myself. Even though it was packed with a lot of people. Afterwhich went to I Am Grace's recording at Beat Merchants. And we couldn't stop laughing when they keep playing the breakdown part of their original. Hahahaha! What the fuck, the sound is stuck in my head hahaha. Then left Beat Merchants at about 2.30ish am and I reached home at about 4am. Then the boy was sooo nice to give me a call and we chat for a bit before I head to sleep.

And, he gave me one really long-assed message which made me really happy when I woke up in the afternoon today. Ahhhhh, you really know how to make me happy ah, haha!

I miss the boy like wtfcbknnbbq :(

But I'm gonna meet him tomorrow, so it's okay.

And after that I'm gonna meet Nikkhi! It's been a long time since I've met her, time to have fun tomorrow and laugh at our nonsense eh, hahahaha. Okay, I'mma go and eat now cos I'm really hungry, sooooo ciao ciao.

Friday, March 19, 2010 @ 3:31 AM

brown nies

We decided to give this bear a name.

And we named it Brownies.

I've been hugging Brownies to sleep at night.

And before I leave my house I'll kiss it.

Very cheesy right?

Anyway, I can't believe it's Friday already. I'm still hesitating on my plans for Saturday. It's either I go for Augasm or go for IAmGrace's recording. Or maybe I should just go for both, which would be a better plan for me. And since it's a Saturday, I should take advantage of it and come home late. Since that's pretty much settled, then.. everything's gonna be alright!

I've gotten myself a new pair of contact lenses because I've used my lenses for 2 months already and it's starting to give me problems. This time I decided to try brown-green coloured lenses. I really hope it'll suit me cos I'd so regret if it doesn't. I think I'm gonna rip my jeans into shorts later in the afternoon (p/s: it's only 3.41am now). Daddy gave me his denim jacket and I'm sososo happy. Of course it's fucking big on me, but I can make it not look big, just wait! Sexcited much hahaha. (cheap thrills like this make me excited)

Boncet, get well soon please! (if it's not for me then it's for your own self k) Once you've fully recovered you can continue eating your kuaci. Don't be stubborn and get plenty of rest! :) And, I miss you! Soooo, hurry get well soon k?

Ok, I'm gonna continue watching Family Guy and watch 27 Dresses now.

Goodnight! :D

Thursday, March 18, 2010 @ 2:37 AM

Arrogant face fail.

Hahahahaha.

And yes hello, I cut my hair.

Okay I enjoyed today.

Despite playing redundant songs.

Then talked to kuaci boy.

Hahahaha!

Ok, I really don't know what I'm typing.

So tired.

K, nights.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010 @ 11:56 PM

Suck it up motherfucker!

Bear that in mind, bear that in mind!

Missing Elyria

(edited)

I'm quite excited for later.

I know, you know, we know.

I'm gonna cut ...

Oooooh the torture, ooooh the pain.

Slit my throat, and carve my heart open.

This pain...

-not bad can actually be an emocore lyrics writer-

Breakfast > Town > Gig > Lepak

Awesome much?

Okay gooooodnight!

p/s: Two Door Cinema is my fucking addiction.

we don't need it.

Too much for me already.

School's Out tomorrow.

Augasm on Saturday.

What more can I ask?

I'll see you when I see you.

:D:D

I'm feeling rather happy because I'm with someone really awesome.
Nothing can describe what I'm feeling right now.
I'm blessed.
:D

Monday, March 15, 2010 @ 2:29 AM

we're taking things slow

I'll make sure this time, it's not gonna be another mistake.

Anything can happen, but I'm positive about this.

Are you?

p/s: if it was an attempt to make me notice you, i'm afraid it was a success. but if it was an attempt to make me feel inferior, i'm afraid you've failed because if you know me, i'm someone who doesn't compromise and i don't really give a fuck. because i'm sure, i've saved you from committing suicide.

Sunday, March 14, 2010 @ 2:04 AM

My Saturday was enjoyable as usual, and also rather productive. Now, I'm determined to practice on my guitar more regularly. I've got motivation and people willing to help me improve on my skills. Especially Abang Afiq! Thank you tau, I'll treat you bubble tea the next time we session again. Nothing interesting happened to me today, except being disturbed by them for -fill in the blanks yourself, i'll give you 5 marks if you guess it correctly-. (you all ah, before i skin you ppl alive, kasi chance la hahaha) I think I'm gonna head to bed like soon, at about 2.30am. Have to wake up early for jamming session later. I hope I don't screw up during the jamming session because I don't know why I'm feeling extremely nervous. I should calm down, it's not my first time jamming -.-" !!

Hi sayang! Now it's your turn to be blogged about. Sorry ah Enaa, yesterday Intan suggested me to post about her and today is your turn! As promised! Thanks for being there for me when I needed someone, not only with a listening ear, but an open heart. I can't believe all this while you kinda guessed it (you know i know only, ini adalah our secret). But I'm glad you asked me about it and I finally opened up to you. I'm glad to hear from your point of view and I guess things are better now. And you ah, tak habis habis kacau aku! Hahaha tapi Amy masih sayang kamu! See you in a few hours time later! :) I love you!

And hi boncet. I promised 2 sentences about you and this are the 2 sentences (this is not included thanks).

1) You fail. (usually it happens when you're around me)

2) You're amazing.

Don't ask for more already, enough for today. See you on Monday! :P

'nuff said. I think I'm gonna head to bed, gooooodnight!

Saturday, March 13, 2010 @ 2:25 AM

and i.. don't wanna speak these words :)

Hello jello.

I'm happy today

I can't believe weekends are here.

I cannot differentiate between weekdays and weekends ever since the holidays have started. My daily routine was to go out almost everyday. Either with my friends or family.

Right now, I've only a few priorities in my mind.

1) Family*

2) Band commitments

3) Close Friends

I can't wait for next Monday/Tuesday because I'm gonna meet the "failure"/boncet.

I think next week is gonna be a good week.

Despite the rough week I've been through, I'm positive.

And hi Intan.

You requested me to blog about you. And you are really one nonsense girl. You're my lesbobo, what to do right? And see I edited the picture to your favourite colour. And don't worry about what you're going through. It's part and parcel of life. Have fun while you can, enjoy what you can't last time. We're not gonna live forever you know. So if you have 10 million crushes, go ahead. It's not wrong. Hahahaha, and please wear granny panties tomorrow when I see you. Hahahaha. *inside joke* Love you okay! I don't like you being sad/moodless.

Okay and that's about it.

I think I'll blog with pictures tomorrow or something.

p/s: boncet fail.
"eh this door pull or push one?"

hahahahaha! :D

Thursday, March 11, 2010 @ 2:44 AM

positive

I only look forward to one thing.
And that one thing is ....

Wednesday, March 10, 2010 @ 7:08 PM

Yea

Sunday, March 7, 2010 @ 6:33 PM

This would be my checklist for this week.

I'm motivated to do stuffs this week because... :)

Learn at least 4 new songs this week on the bass.
Practice the songs I'm told to do this week.
Buy new jeans/shades/hair accessories.
Try to revamp LR's Myspace.
Spend more time with my family.
Only go out when necessary.
Stop being fucking lazy.

I'm sexcitedzxczxc for tomorrow please.

In two weeks, you can bid goodbye to my long hair.

And also bid goodbye to the colour of my hair.

I'll update when I feel like it!

I've set myself up on a challenge, and I'm ready.

Saturday, March 6, 2010 @ 11:57 PM

Goodbye Hair! / Happy Birthday!

So, this would be probably be the last time I'm gonna see 3 people who came into my life and made it better. Okay maybe not the last time but.. it's gonna be quite awhile since I'm gonna see them again. 3 of them are gonna serve the nation (and do the nation proud) on Tuesday! The three very special people would be Nizam, Rahman and Afiq!

Hi Nizam, if you're reading this don't slap your forehead tau. Because I'm not like (you know who), hahahaha! You are officially one of the most retarded person I've met. But of course retarded in a good way. Never fail to make anyone laugh. One thing is that, I admire the fact that you do not want people to worry. And this does not reflect on everyone, so far only you! I'm gonna miss you being mentally retarded and no more hair to smell anymore. Take care tau!

Hello Rahman. Even though I don't really know you that much since I've only known you recently.. all I know is that you damn shy can? Hahahhahaha, but of course I was proven wrong last Saturday at Sentosa when you showed your ass to everyone. That I didn't expect from you, really. I'm gonna miss your shyness and your epic reaction when eating skittles. Hahahahha, take care tau. Someone police sia, fierce giler.

Hello Afiq. Aka, perut giler hahahahaha. (the guy on the left) You also, I'm gonna miss your humour! Who's gonna text me at 12pm asking me "Korang, lepak hari ni eh?" and then sleep back. And then expect a reply at 2pm when I wake up. Hahahhaha. You kene interrogate rabak gila but nvm la, you funny. And who's gonna talk to me about Wowowee and filipino-related stuffs? Hahahahahha, k la k la. You also take care!

Three of you better take care, after you come out NS all macho macho abit. Jadi abang-abang sachok. Hahahahha! :D With regards from Amy Munchkins Cinnamon, have fun in NS!

Happy Advanced Birthday Mark Fernandez!

Someone now think he big ah. Hahahaha, happy birthday filipino boy. Faster come out of NS so Enaa will not have to whine to us saying that she misses you so much! :x Good luck with your future endevours and I hope you had a great time today! Have fun thon-ing at Nash's place! :)

hmm

Nothing seems important to me anymore.

Only ...

Retard

This is my second post for the day.

I'm feeling mentally unsound because ....

I can't wait for Monday for some reason.

Dear weekends, please pass quickly.

Friday, March 5, 2010 @ 11:01 PM

Tigerlily

Why don't we hit restart and pause it at our favourite parts.

I think my drawing skills are not that bad.

Thursday, March 4, 2010 @ 11:05 PM

;)

If it means a lot to you.

I miss you.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010 @ 10:25 PM

shit

I have found my new love,

Thick as Blood

Monday, March 1, 2010 @ 3:12 AM

I've been sleeping at ungodly hours for god knows what reason.