Would you lay here?

Would you just lay here.

Would you just lay here,

and just forget the world.

I'm working almost everyday ):

I hope I don't pengsan.

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Nothing's gonna change ever the fact that,

I only love one person.

And that's Farhan Hashim.

I love you bby!

I'm free like a birddddd.

10 days to 1st month with my boyfriend!

12 days to 1st pay from Cotton On!

15 days to my boyfriend's birthday.

I'm pretty stoked for this coming holidays,

especially knowing I'm not gonna be broke.

(wtf, I breached on my promise to temporarily quit smoking because I just bought a pack today. actually reason being I think my pack dropped out from my bag this morning.)

AND I'M GONNA DYE AND REBOND MY HAIR.

Like finally hello nice hair and goodbye shit hair.

K, I think I need sleep. Stupid medicine. HAHAHAHA

Work was good yesterday, though it was a little tiring since I had to manage the front zone and the ladies' section. Intan's friend is my colleague, and Enaa's friend is also my colleague. Small world much? Did closing at 11pm and went home for some good rest after eating my medication. And also idk if there's any effect if you eat medicine without eating 'cos honestly I can't fucking eat.

Today, woke up with perspiration everyfuckingwhere. It was soooo humid and warm and I ran to the shower cos I couldn't stand the stickiness. Gave breakfast a miss because I still can't eat. Jave brother fetched me to Yishun MRT because he was afraid that I might die halfway otw to school. But it seems like he was trying to kill me instead because the fucking air-con was soooo cold! Thanks bro! You and Louis are the best brothers everzxczxc.

Headed to school and bought panadol, drinks, lollipops. And now I'm alone in class since everyone went down for break. I can't eat, so defeats my purpose of going down. And the classroom is fucking cold :'(

Sucks being sick, sorry for being a whiney bitch but who likes being sick, correct or not. If you like being sick so much I'll make sure I'll cough right in your face.

Nvm, HELLO HELLO money here I come.

I miss my boyfriend so fucking much :(

Ohohoh, today's Database System's test was quite okay. I'm pretty sure I'm able to pass that's if I don't make any stupid careless mistakes.

Honestly, I've no idea what to study for Data Communications. :S I think I suck at theoretical shits already. I wish RP used the concept of closed book tests and written tests. I don't really see the point in having open book tests, there's no challenge. With the competitive students in my class, I think I'm convinced enough that I should do my best. But the fucked up part is that I've no been scoring a lot of A's for my daily grades. All I get so far majorities are B's and a few A's here and there! (suprisingly no C's for me YET) Oh well, I should get back studying. Bye!

Yes, I'm trying my hardest to cut down smoking.

I think I'm doing well because I haven't touched a stick since last Saturday. I.have.to.save.money! (for God knows what reason!!) I think I'm doing well saving money because I've $40 in my wallet now. Until I finish working and obtain my pay, I shall temporarily stop smoking. (Well unless you're a kind soul offering me a stick, I'll still reject, HAHA!)

--Tuesday--

My Tuesday was great.

Nothing beats spending half of the day with your boyfriend.

Because I think he's the only one who can tolerate my nonsense. And tolerate my lameness and everything else. Neither of us brought our cameras, so no pictures! Our intended intention to study failed miserably. We watched 'The Last Song', dinner and quality time.

Today's gonna be the start of my UT, and I'm prepared. Because I've been studying like a motherfucker last week, so I'm more or less confident about passing it. (not with flying colours but just at least a C or B??)

Kkkkkkk, till then I'll see you when I see you.

eh, eh, eh I'm also here:

My boyfriend is someone who understands me.

Anyway.....

I'm afraid of the future.

Very.. afraid.

But not anymore.

I've already found someone who'll be walking through this future with me.

I love you Farhan.

Have you ever wondered what would happen if you can get everything you want?

Sometimes, at times like this, when I look at everyone else...

I feel inferior towards them because I'm nothing.

I wish to be somebody, but I can't.

Never take anyone for granted, and that includes me.

And I feel fucking useless if I know I can't help.

Especially with something that's beyond my reach.

I really wish I was somebody.

Damn, it's been awhile since I posted something that's proper.

Thank you 'Monty Are I', you made me cry after a long time.

Thanks a lot ah bro! -.- Now I'm an angry fucker. HAHAHAHA! Joking la, I still love you k bro manymany. Today was well-spent with the usuals. Didn't take much photos today because I was busy buying stuffs for myself and looking for items to buy the next time I get the money. Went to Orchard to meet the usuals, and ate at FarEast. We went Hereen then Dhoby! Bought flowers and cake for mommy and we're entertained by each other's company. The guys taopoked each other and we had senseless conversations. Definitely a well spent Saturday. I failed to suprise my mom today cos' she was in the living room and I can't give a well-explained excuse for the roses in my hands (later she think from my bf how? hahahhaha). So, I just ran into my parent's room and my dad was there. He helped me to open the cake box then sang to her some song with the cake and roses. So I guess, I'm gonna head out in the afternoon for lunch with my parents. Mmmmmm! Okay, I think I'm heading to sleep, I'm feeling cold like fuck. Goodnight.

Love, happens for a reason.

For me, the reason is, you deserve to be love.

For all the things you did for me,

it makes me love you even more.

I love you.

Farhan and myself have been dating for two months already.

Honestly, these two months doesn't seem like two months. And I know of a fairly good reason why! I've been having the time of my life for the past two months with this boy, and we're enjoying each other's company like there's no tomorrow. Yes, we're getting together soon, maybe I'll give you a suprise soon? :)

Cliche but, honestly, words cannot describe how happy I am being with you. I must say I'm quite lucky to have known you. And the fact that you accept me for who I am. Not everyone can accept myself for who I am, but you came about and told me otherwise. Thanks for being here for me for the past two months.

Anyway,

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