Friday, September 3, 2010 @ 3:10 AM
Disillusionised.
I've been having weird dreams lately.
And it's been awhile since I constantly been having dreams everytime I go to sleep and only recently, that's happening. But you know what's the fun part about my dreams? They make no sense at all, and usually I can control my dreams. I hope tonight, I won't dream about anything. Am I thinking too much when I'm sleeping? Because dreams are made up of things that you're subconsciously thinking about when you're asleep. And whenever I wake up, I'll wake to either the drilling upstairs or my dad's stereo blasting Kitaro.
Anyway, I've been great. I'm preoccupied by studying at home, dinner with close friends/family, work, Runescape, Last Chaos, anime, manga, 90210, The Big C. Because my tests are round the corner, I'm stressed like fuck about my grades and I'm fasting, I've been smoking more after breaking fast. My room is now red and it's nearer to the house door/gate which would mean it'll be easier for me to sneak out late at night.... for smoke breaks.
Nothing beats just sitting under your void deck on a chilly night at 3am, doing nothing, just sitting down and smoking.. and forgetting what life is about for awhile.
I miss my boyfriend, can't wait for 5th.