Things are becoming a wreck one by one, to the extent that I can't find any words to describe what I'm feeling. 1st November 2010, definitely not a good start of the month. I'm not looking forward to anything else, I've lost all my motivation. My motivation to work, study, and achieve my dreams because I feel really lost. Hearing two news that's unpleasant is not doing justice to my mind. But I'm trying my best to slowly get back up on my feet though it's gonna be fucking hard. I'm giving school a miss this week because I'm not in the state to study. I'll be back on track when I'm physically and emotionally stable next week (hopefully). I'm fine, maybe this is just part of the phase that God has given me. Although I'm filled with mixed feelings and I can't fully express myself, my private blog has always been the best place to try to express myself. Meanwhile, I'll just this place to rot because no one reads this anyway. I'm sorry for all the unpleasant posts but everythings' getting rough. I don't know what to do, but there will be a way, I hope.